Wednesday, January 26, 2011

We're halfway there..

Matt and I can't believe we (almost) have a 6 month old! We're halfway to having a ONE year old!!! That is just mind boggling. Roman is sitting up but still working on balance (he lasts for a minute before toppling over). He wants to crawl SO bad and is working those legs in the right motion, now if we could just get the arms going too! He is standing though! Matt loves to test him in different ways. We've stood him up holding the couch, his floor mat, and Matt has even tried the bath tub rail (grrrr). He stands great! Again he lasts about a minute and grins away then his little legs get tired and crumple. Roman has been getting random fevers and throwing up randomly as well. The fevers may be teething? The vomit possibly overeating? Man I wish they could tell you what's wrong! I'm not a person who likes to guess.

We had a family photo session this past weekend. We were blessed with sunshine (a rarity) however is was still bitterly cold. Roman did NOT like being out in the cold. After crying through the whole session (there should be some pretty funny photos of it) we had to call it quits when his little hands felt like popsicles. He stuck them in my mouth and after realizing they were toasty in there he fell asleep that way. Made me think of my brother J who always did that (but just because. Not because they were cold).

As for me, I'm doing much better. I've had very stable weeks emotionally. However March (D-day) is approaching quickly so I can't say how long the emotions will STAY stable. Matt has block leave next week and the week after. I took off the first week to be with him. We originally were going to England but I've been WAY too stressed to plan and think about such an important trip. Instead we will do Berlin for a night or two, Ramstein (he wants Chili's), and if time permits a night or two in Garmisch.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I've slacked again!

I've slacked on both blogs the last couple of weeks. However this time I really DO have a good excuse! Last week I was battling a sick baby (diarhea, vomit, fever, congestion, cough) and Matt and I had to take shifts with work. Monday and Wednesday I went to work in the AM while Matt stayed home then we switched. Tuesday I did a full day because I had some personal appointments as well. By Thursday Roman didn't have fever or vomit but still the rest of the symptoms but unfortunately those other symptoms aren't reason enough to stay home. I HATED thinking my baby didn't feel 100% and didn't have his Mommy. Something I will NEVER get used to- no matter what you say.

Lately I have been struggling with a bit of post partum. I've talked to many wonderful people who have helped me and I thank them from the bottom of my heart. I know this is completely normal but part of me wonders if I would have the same severity if I were at home with family help. I thought going back to work would help but that seemed to overwhelm and thereby depress me even more. I have been feeling 90% better this week which is AWESOME. I haven't cried in a week which is amazing since I cried every day from the time Roman was born until last Tuesday. I am not ashamed of this but I am not publicizing it for the whole world. I will talk to people who ask about it. I have shared it with my closest friends. I still haven't talked to my whole family yet but it will come.

Part of the reason I am doing better is because school isn't as overwhelming. I've found a schedule that works for me and thereby a lesson plan format (Thanks Amanda!) that works so I just have to "plug in" the week's activities. I still wish I could plan farther than one week at a time...I guess that will come? I have also had my aide back which makes things immensely better! She is such a huge help and blessing. It sounds so cliche but when things were at the lowest I just prayed to God for ideas and no kidding the next day during school ideas kept popping into my head- and they worked! God is awesome like that...

There's more to update but my lunch break is over. Ta- ta!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Things that currently make me happy

*Chocolate covered coffee beans (Thank you Nana!!)
* mini salads from the commissary (in the cooler where the sandwiches and drinks are). So yummy and only $1!
*Roman's smile (always)
*When my husband apologizes!! :-)
*Reba dvds

What makes you happy right now?