Had to share

I know I haven't finished updating but still had to share these (especially for my wonderful "Sister" who is expecting)! :-)

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God

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Berlin Trip

Well to say that this was not the best vacation would be an understatement. We decided to do 2 nights and 3 days in Berlin over Matt's block leave then go to Ramstein for another 2 days. We wanted to do so many things! Walk along the wall, visit Checkpoint Charlie, the parliament building, the zoo and aquarium, etc etc etc. Well we did two of those things. Why? Because the entire trip Roman was sick. Sick with what we don't know but he just felt crappy. As in screaming every hour of the night then crying any moment you weren't moving with him during the day. Not eating any baby food (but still drinking thank goodness). He would vomit when you tried to feed him. We were so exhausted from our horrible nights that we ended up taking naps all morning long and not leaving our hotel til early afternoon! The first day we did make it to Hard Rock for dinner and the Berlin Zoo and Aquarium. Both are fabulous but not so much in the dead of winter. But it was cool how close you got to the animals! Roman snoozed in his stroller through most of it (until we had to eat lunch and then of course he screamed because we weren't moving). That night we were tired so we ordered in room service and just laid in bed!

The next day we slept all morning again and then went to Checkpoint Charlie. Not as exciting as I was expecting but that's how a lot of things in Europe have been. We did get pictures and went to the museum but learned that museums and sick babies don't mix. So much for learning some history! It's ok Roman...we still love you!
That evening we walked up the main street outside our hotel and into this HUGE 7 story department store KaDeWe which had every famous designer imaginable aka nothing we could ever in our lives afford! But still fun to wonder around. And drool at. Then back to our hotel early again.

We were so tired of not sleeping that we decided to skip Ramstein and get home. At least at home Roman is in his own room and we can shut the door and get some sleep! So that's what we did. Only the very minute we got home the stinkin booger perked right up! Slept through the night and woke up ready for his baby food. Kids...

(Pix to come!)

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March already??

I can't believe it. The month I have been dreading has arrived. But none of that right now. I have SO much to catch up on! Here's the list of things to come...

Our Berlin Trip
Roman

• his horrible sicknesses
• crawling (or lack of)
• Matt and Roman's amazing bond
• Saying Mama!
• Finger foods

Matt and I

• D-Day...
• My new job (and the love/hate that comes with it)
• our illnesses

Guess we'll start from the farthest thing back...

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Bible Study

So I've never done my own personal Bible time. I haven't ever really "learned" how. Does anyone learn how? I would love to know. I've had to resort to just opening up the Bible to random pages and reading whatever my eyes fall on. So far it's been PERFECT for my frame of mind. Coincidence? Maybe...but I don't think so. Two that I'm loving right now:

Job 15
If you were truly wise, would you sound so much like a windbag, belching hot air?

Later on it says "Do you think you're the first person to have to deal with these things?"

(I read the Message Bible if you're wondering about my translation). These things are so me. My flaws. Things I'm having to deal with and try and fix.

Another I liked and it was also perfect for a friend who happened to be visiting me that day:

Job 22 21-25
Give in to God, come to terms with him and everything will turn out just fine...

How do you study the Word?

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We're halfway there..

Matt and I can't believe we (almost) have a 6 month old! We're halfway to having a ONE year old!!! That is just mind boggling. Roman is sitting up but still working on balance (he lasts for a minute before toppling over). He wants to crawl SO bad and is working those legs in the right motion, now if we could just get the arms going too! He is standing though! Matt loves to test him in different ways. We've stood him up holding the couch, his floor mat, and Matt has even tried the bath tub rail (grrrr). He stands great! Again he lasts about a minute and grins away then his little legs get tired and crumple. Roman has been getting random fevers and throwing up randomly as well. The fevers may be teething? The vomit possibly overeating? Man I wish they could tell you what's wrong! I'm not a person who likes to guess.

We had a family photo session this past weekend. We were blessed with sunshine (a rarity) however is was still bitterly cold. Roman did NOT like being out in the cold. After crying through the whole session (there should be some pretty funny photos of it) we had to call it quits when his little hands felt like popsicles. He stuck them in my mouth and after realizing they were toasty in there he fell asleep that way. Made me think of my brother J who always did that (but just because. Not because they were cold).

As for me, I'm doing much better. I've had very stable weeks emotionally. However March (D-day) is approaching quickly so I can't say how long the emotions will STAY stable. Matt has block leave next week and the week after. I took off the first week to be with him. We originally were going to England but I've been WAY too stressed to plan and think about such an important trip. Instead we will do Berlin for a night or two, Ramstein (he wants Chili's), and if time permits a night or two in Garmisch.

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I've slacked again!

I've slacked on both blogs the last couple of weeks. However this time I really DO have a good excuse! Last week I was battling a sick baby (diarhea, vomit, fever, congestion, cough) and Matt and I had to take shifts with work. Monday and Wednesday I went to work in the AM while Matt stayed home then we switched. Tuesday I did a full day because I had some personal appointments as well. By Thursday Roman didn't have fever or vomit but still the rest of the symptoms but unfortunately those other symptoms aren't reason enough to stay home. I HATED thinking my baby didn't feel 100% and didn't have his Mommy. Something I will NEVER get used to- no matter what you say.

Lately I have been struggling with a bit of post partum. I've talked to many wonderful people who have helped me and I thank them from the bottom of my heart. I know this is completely normal but part of me wonders if I would have the same severity if I were at home with family help. I thought going back to work would help but that seemed to overwhelm and thereby depress me even more. I have been feeling 90% better this week which is AWESOME. I haven't cried in a week which is amazing since I cried every day from the time Roman was born until last Tuesday. I am not ashamed of this but I am not publicizing it for the whole world. I will talk to people who ask about it. I have shared it with my closest friends. I still haven't talked to my whole family yet but it will come.

Part of the reason I am doing better is because school isn't as overwhelming. I've found a schedule that works for me and thereby a lesson plan format (Thanks Amanda!) that works so I just have to "plug in" the week's activities. I still wish I could plan farther than one week at a time...I guess that will come? I have also had my aide back which makes things immensely better! She is such a huge help and blessing. It sounds so cliche but when things were at the lowest I just prayed to God for ideas and no kidding the next day during school ideas kept popping into my head- and they worked! God is awesome like that...

There's more to update but my lunch break is over. Ta- ta!

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Things that currently make me happy

*Chocolate covered coffee beans (Thank you Nana!!)
* mini salads from the commissary (in the cooler where the sandwiches and drinks are). So yummy and only $1!
*Roman's smile (always)
*When my husband apologizes!! :-)
*Reba dvds

What makes you happy right now?

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